Its cold tonight, 14 degrees here in Makkah. Through out the year we keep counting times. Wishing each month comes fast. Now that 2015 ends
I realised that somehow time flies little bit fast this time.
Alhamdulillah great things happened this year. Somehow this blog was all about my helpless romantic stories, searching to the right man. Well
we found each other in January 2015. I was just finished praying and shopping with my friend and her family. Suddenly she said she had fever, and yes, high fever. So i left her sisters to continue shopping and my friend and I went back to the hotel. I stayed with her for while, looked after her until her father and brother came back. Once they arrived, I excused myself. I ask permission to go home to her father and I saw her brother sitting in the room and I said Hi and Gooodbye to him. No response from him, I think he was shock why this girl so excited. So I took my luggage and went home. Yes , I shopped with my luggage. In case I bought many things, its easier to drag rather than carry. Hehe.
So to cut the story short, my friend told me that her brother likes me, and her mother too and we get to know each other by texting a little. Then we met each other, when I went home for vacation. Since then, everything just follow through. I went home again in July for Eid celebration and we got engaged and alhamdulillah so far still touching up our wedding preparation. Its kinda tough that I’m far away. My parents and my aunties are the ones preparing everything, alhamdulillah my friends are helping too. And most of it he is the one who arrange everything. He bought the materials for my wedding gown, he made the wedding card, search and find photo and videographer, most of the documents and many more. And he understand that I’m busy, he respect my space, my opinion and choices. I’m lucky. Nothing much to tell about now, since we never got to spend much time together. After marriage, in shaa allah the story begins. I introduce to you, Ariff Iskandar :)
Although since long time I wanted to get married, when the time so near and its happening, and its for real, I feel sad. Not that I am not excited to get married, its just my responsibility and priority now will change. Surely, everyone went through this. When I came home from boarding school after few months, I come home to my parents. Everything I’ve done is for them. Now, I have new home to come to. Its funny hows life is. When you were born, your parent celebrate you, finished school, then graduation, they celebrate. After all these time, the struggle they’ve been through, the hard work to raise and seeing where I’m standing today, they still celebrate the day that I’m living them. Somewhat unfair but that is the circle of life. Off course I will see everyone from time to time, its just the feeling of the whole new situation there makes my world chaos. I’m still adapting to my new life in future. Hope I will do well. I never stop praying, I’m kinda scared too. May ALLAH grant both of us His blessing as husband and wife.
Another important person that I met, and I believe Allah send her to me. Funny that I cannot explain how on earth we got so close. Its just like how ahlami and I became friends. Until now still no explanation on how me and amie become close by only seeing each other once a year. So I believed that Allah has arranged this for me. Same story goes with kak Mazni. Earlier we never got a chance to go out to eat or shopping together since the day I came here. Until there was one time, end of 2014 when the flood in Malaysia was so bad. I wanted to go to Masjid Al- Haram to pray and she was free and we end up praying together there. At that time, we were not that close. I have no idea what happen in between that now I feel like I has a sister that I never had, a best friend and almost lover. She don’t judge, I am at ease every time i’m around her. I can hugged her anytime I wanted or needed. What I said and done I don’t have to be scared that she will judge. Funny since school until now one or two still love to tease the way I carry myself. Calling me names but its okay, that doesn’t matter and not important. She looked after me when I was sick, stayed up all night and didn’t sleep and went to work dizzy the next morning. Many other things, but all I can say is thank you ALLAH for your kindness. All I can give is love, support and respect and prayers. Grant her happiness, blessing to her family and children and ease her pain, ease her journey. And I hope we will keep in touch where ever we go in future and to see each other again in akhirah, among others, in shaa allah.
Part from that, my grandmother had a heart attack last months. She still recovering now, resting at home. Alhamdulillah, my mom was transferred back to Jerantut, so she can look after my grandmother. Allah, protect my family, be with them all the time. Grant them good health and wealth. Let us be among the one who always grateful with what we have. Alhamdulillah. I pray that she will get better soon, and I will see her in February. Stay strong wan , I love you so much :’(
Other than that, work was challenging as always. I know this is for my own personal growth. Alhamdulillah, I went through it just fine with Your help. Great experienced during disaster last Hajj. To be in the chaos and to see some miracles. Allahu akbar. I love this place. I don’t know how I will able to go back Malaysia for good. This is the only place that when I have hard time, I can immediately find peace. Lately I lost my temper a lot, and I hope You will forgive me. Forgive me. I will be better self, I’m trying to. Thank you Allah for loving me, my family and my friends, You know each one of them. Till next time. Sleepy head.